I miss writing.
I have been constantly occupied with mommy duties lately that by the end of the day, I just zonked out.
I miss my “me” time too.
A couple of weeks now our adorable toddler kept on having night terrors. It was gone for sometime but returned now with a vengeance. It not only happen during nighttime but on nap time as well. It has come to a point that when i lie down with her, I am scared to move. Because any little movement will make her half awake and thus trigger uncontrollable shaking and crying. During the night I lost count of how many times I get up, to console her. I can’t really do anything but I have to get up and watch her trashing around to make sure that she’s not going to hurt herself. My limit is 5 minutes if it goes more than that, then I wake her up by washing her hands in cold water or her feet. It does not wake her up immediately but after a couple of seconds she becomes concious of what I am doing and would politely say “No, Mama!”
Most of the time all the ruckus of big sis will not matter to lil bro. A bomb would go off and baby boy would still be sleeping. Noise don’t matter much to baby boy but try to move him from bed to crib or crib to bed then you got one screaming baby in your hands.
Basically that’s how we spend our nights that by the time it’s daylight mama is nursing a headache.
Headaches is getting so bad that I am contemplating of seeing our family doctor. It sometimes develop to full blown migraines and if not migraine I get all dizzy and my eyes hurt so bad and everything gets blurry. Tylenol helps, so I have become a Tylenol popping person.
My husband has been great. On top of working hard, he makes sure that I can have a quiet moment even for just 30 blissful minutes.
I know that this is just temporary and my baby girl’s nightmare will go away. And I know also that my body is telling me to start taking care of it. With doctors appointment looming, I hope that there is nothing wrong with me and it is just the constant lack of sleep that is causing all this migraines.
There is a reason for everything and God will provide. I raise all my worries to you Oh Lord. Thank you.